Heads up - Today’s issue might sound a little sad. If you don’t wish to be a part of my sufferings, you can stop reading at this point. See you next week!
Yeah, so I don’t know what I am doing anymore. And it’s pretty scary, to be honest. I doing fine academically, it’s just that it feels pretty hollow at times. I don’t really know what is wrong. Some would say I’m in love, some might say I’ve lost direction in life, while still others would say I’m not doing exciting things in life.
In all fairness, some or all of that might be true. Apologies if I sound rambly, but I really am clueless at this point. I wish there was someone guiding me all the way to my death bed, but apparently that’s now how growth or life in general works. One is supposed to figure out along the way. And clearly, I’m not doing the best job at it.
I usually keep to myself. In fact, I loved being alone, reading every text I could find around me, sipping coffee and listening to whatever it is that Spotify plays on my headphones. Apparently, that has changed. I mean, I think it is pretty normal for it to happen. I’m just surprised that I was not aware of it myself sooner.
In retrospect, I believe change is hard. Whatever may be the cause of change in me - mentally, physically, behaviorally, I think it is for the better. So, yes onward and upward from here.
That felt great - venting out my thoughts. Thank you so much, if you have read until this point. I have not made any edits, so please excuse me if I’ve made any errors.
Have a great life. Talk to you soon.
- Debashish Reang